the original ah lian;
Thursday, April 20, 2006
When someone is in trouble and they need help ; people usually come by the droves to help out. And while it's really touching and all that. thank you very much, it will drive people like me to say ANYTHING for you to get out of my face. Like I said, I'm prone to bouts of reclusiveness and practically no one can get me out from it.
And then the hubbub goes away, and everyone leaves, satisfied that 'Celestine's okay. Just fine and dandy'.
That's when I need help. When everything's over I need someone to talk to, to reassure me that yes, everything's over, whatever that you wished you did or you did is over, nothing left.
People now ignore me at this juncture, when exams approach, and I am still doubting, I can't move forward, something's holding me back now and I can't GO, no matter what. I will desperately talk to someone, anyone. Talk to me. Tell me I'm alive, I'm okay, everything's over, you have to move on with your life.
I want to go forward. I want to want to want to.
Please listen to me. I'm calling for help.
subarashiki sekai 10:20 PM
